although, i wouldn't call it that. I just haven't had the drive to write lately. A lot has happened once again in between journal entries. As for the last few, i didn't really say too much.
ok... got distracted as usual... ikuze!
well there are two huge fires burning in southern california right now. one up near around sylmar and the other one is a bit closer to home as it just entered the chino hills region. if the latter continues north, we're in trouble. *sigh* the fires are causing surges in the power grid. the lights flicker every now and then and it causes my computer to think it needs to shut down.
I haven't really kept up with the news lately so, other than the fires and obama becoming president-elect, i don't know what's going on in the world. Not even the weather. I think i waste way too much time.
it's getting late but i'll try to stick it out and just keep this up to date with all of my personal dealings.
the fall semester is almost over as I only have three (or is it two now?) classes left. The rest of the crap is for presentations (which i still need to fine tune) and finals. I believe i am maintaining my A in that class but i have yet to acheive a perfect score on any tests. They always ellude me as i make silly mistakes. I;'ve gotten 96% on my first two and 98% on my last... i missed one damn character in my conjugation. my teacher knows i know this crap and could recite it in my sleep. grr... how bothersome. I'm still trying to keep pace with Michelle in all of this. Sigh. it's a shame that our teacher will no longer be teaching at Mt. SAC. She really loves us. We're the only ones that stay after class to ask her a few questions, japanese related but outside the lesson.
I haven't been too happy with how i've been lately. like i said above, i feel as though i'm not really making the most of my time. I can do so much but i get complacent. I need to plan out my days better. I always feel like i have to do something but when i try to piece my day together, i come up short. This leads to a not so productive day. i think i'm too comfortable in what i do now and there is where my problem lies.
I don't recall how much i spoke of Michelle in earlier offerings. I think i might have danced around it but it was obvious that i thought highly of her. I still do. She has helped me open up a bit more but i feel as though i might be a bit too overbearing. I'm trying to scale back but i constantly have a bunch of things to ask her and tell her. *sigh* Maybe this is where that age difference plays a small part. I am pretty much free to do whatever i like whenever i so choose. I always keep in mind that once Michelle leaves the confines of school, her family comes first. i just don't want to get in the way of whatever flow she has already established within her home.
*sigh* i'm having a little difficulty trying to put into words what's going on in my head. Basically, I'm still afraid that even after all Michelle and i talked about, she might get up and leave. I'm constantly worried about if i bother her too much. i mean we talked about the whole how life is like a revolving door and people will leave almost as fast as they entered. I don't think i'm ready if that does happen. It has been a long time since i've been able to open up to someone as much as i have with her. We've only known each other for a few months but its almost like we've known each other forever. I really do value her friendship. I just hope i'm not holding on too tight. I feel like its a little one sided. I constantly run my mouth. blah. I really hope she doesn't mind.
I still need to confirm if she's headed to the launch event for The Girl Who Leapt Through Time this tuesday still. I've been really hesitant to bring it up and i feel like i'm running out of time to ask her. I kind of wanted to give her enough time to plan it out if she did agree although she did deflect my question pretty well but not really saying yes or no. she told me she has to check the calendar or something like that which points to no but i'll never know until i get a definite no.
So anywho, I'm not completely in Do As Infinity mode but i am really appreciating their music again. It really just touches me. I have no idea what she's singing but her voice resonates within my soul. it's a strange feeling cuz it stirs up a lot of different emotions within me. I'd love to go into more detail but i really need to go to bed. I didn't talk about everything but at least i got some of the stuff about Michelle that's been buzzing around my head. that's worth something, right?
ok... got distracted as usual... ikuze!
well there are two huge fires burning in southern california right now. one up near around sylmar and the other one is a bit closer to home as it just entered the chino hills region. if the latter continues north, we're in trouble. *sigh* the fires are causing surges in the power grid. the lights flicker every now and then and it causes my computer to think it needs to shut down.
I haven't really kept up with the news lately so, other than the fires and obama becoming president-elect, i don't know what's going on in the world. Not even the weather. I think i waste way too much time.
it's getting late but i'll try to stick it out and just keep this up to date with all of my personal dealings.
the fall semester is almost over as I only have three (or is it two now?) classes left. The rest of the crap is for presentations (which i still need to fine tune) and finals. I believe i am maintaining my A in that class but i have yet to acheive a perfect score on any tests. They always ellude me as i make silly mistakes. I;'ve gotten 96% on my first two and 98% on my last... i missed one damn character in my conjugation. my teacher knows i know this crap and could recite it in my sleep. grr... how bothersome. I'm still trying to keep pace with Michelle in all of this. Sigh. it's a shame that our teacher will no longer be teaching at Mt. SAC. She really loves us. We're the only ones that stay after class to ask her a few questions, japanese related but outside the lesson.
I haven't been too happy with how i've been lately. like i said above, i feel as though i'm not really making the most of my time. I can do so much but i get complacent. I need to plan out my days better. I always feel like i have to do something but when i try to piece my day together, i come up short. This leads to a not so productive day. i think i'm too comfortable in what i do now and there is where my problem lies.
I don't recall how much i spoke of Michelle in earlier offerings. I think i might have danced around it but it was obvious that i thought highly of her. I still do. She has helped me open up a bit more but i feel as though i might be a bit too overbearing. I'm trying to scale back but i constantly have a bunch of things to ask her and tell her. *sigh* Maybe this is where that age difference plays a small part. I am pretty much free to do whatever i like whenever i so choose. I always keep in mind that once Michelle leaves the confines of school, her family comes first. i just don't want to get in the way of whatever flow she has already established within her home.
*sigh* i'm having a little difficulty trying to put into words what's going on in my head. Basically, I'm still afraid that even after all Michelle and i talked about, she might get up and leave. I'm constantly worried about if i bother her too much. i mean we talked about the whole how life is like a revolving door and people will leave almost as fast as they entered. I don't think i'm ready if that does happen. It has been a long time since i've been able to open up to someone as much as i have with her. We've only known each other for a few months but its almost like we've known each other forever. I really do value her friendship. I just hope i'm not holding on too tight. I feel like its a little one sided. I constantly run my mouth. blah. I really hope she doesn't mind.
I still need to confirm if she's headed to the launch event for The Girl Who Leapt Through Time this tuesday still. I've been really hesitant to bring it up and i feel like i'm running out of time to ask her. I kind of wanted to give her enough time to plan it out if she did agree although she did deflect my question pretty well but not really saying yes or no. she told me she has to check the calendar or something like that which points to no but i'll never know until i get a definite no.
So anywho, I'm not completely in Do As Infinity mode but i am really appreciating their music again. It really just touches me. I have no idea what she's singing but her voice resonates within my soul. it's a strange feeling cuz it stirs up a lot of different emotions within me. I'd love to go into more detail but i really need to go to bed. I didn't talk about everything but at least i got some of the stuff about Michelle that's been buzzing around my head. that's worth something, right?
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